obliterated faith in humanity

As this article may seem a bit dark and sad

yet it shed the light on a thing that seems more and more reoccurring these days

a close friend of mine and i sat together recently

and we both had a nostalgic conversation

bit by bit our conversations came along to bring some serious topics

we talked a lot about people who are around us

and we came to a conclusion 

but before we come to that conclusion lets go along bit by bit and see the stories that have been exchanged

between me and my friend.

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Its fun sometimes when you meet new people, especially how you find someone who you can share things with on an intellectual level, that is how i explained to him my story as i told him how i met this new "friend"

who also shares similar cultural background with me, i explained how we both had quite a fun conversation

at times and serious yet fruitful conversations

the thing that hurts the most is how all that changed all of a sudden, when it seemed as if 

it was a one night thing and then ...

the conversations stopped!

and everything changed, nothing as it used to be before

conversations found a dead end the minute it started

Hi ... hello ... how are you ... good!

and that is how i realized that this friendship ended

it was an awesome relationship where you thought

you found good people in this world

and that i felt maybe this relationship should have been honored rightfully 

by gifting it what it deserves !

only to find that maybe perhaps it was too much some how

such is life ... 

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The worst thing you find in life after finding out that you are preferred over someone else

is to discover that you are preferred over someone else in your family 

who actually is a bad person to begin with!

that is how my friend explained to me

how his family has been playing the preferring game

of one family member over him even though that preferred family member isn't a good person at all

and every time a conversation strikes up with this person 

there is the comparison thing going on
and the my friend is put under the spot light
compared to a bad person who is supposedly seen as good!

life really isn't fair ...

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Its funny, yet it is extremely "lame"
when you make new acquaintances and they become friends

its only after that nice part where things start to boil up and bring interesting
turn of events to the whole relationship

"Friends with certain interests"

personally speaking i have one in particular
who i have help countless of times
and it was a "GIGANTIC" sort of help

"financial help in times of trouble"

that would accurately describe the sort of help that i offered

but when the roles reversed and it was suppose to be "pay back time"
there was nothing but extreme foolishness
and a lesson which was learnt the hard way

knowing only in the end
that there are people who actually do that
who are only your friend when you are doing good
and only want something from you

and who wont skip a heart beat in leaving
when they feel that they should leave

i admit

i was foolish enough to think maybe they cared .....

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those stories and many more of those
which i am pretty sure you all have face one way or another
were you can relate to them

thus leading us all to ...

lose faith in humanity !